I miss you all so much! I hope you have had a wonderful week! I am sorry I don't have time to write back each of you , but thank you for all your love and support. You are all so wonderful! Everything you have said has helped me in some way or other. I would love to write you, its easier for me to write a letter so send me a letter so i have your address! :)
Anyways this week has been so much better! I was doing so good up until a few days ago... I lost it, I was so overwhelmed and i started yelling at the Elders. Haha looking back i realize it was funny but at the time it was awful. First off i was mad because one of the Elders is so arrogant that he missed the opportunity to have a wonderful discussion with an investigator but he was too busy talking about himself that he wouldn't even give his companion or the investigator the time to say anything, she was asking so many questions about the church and he just ignored her. I was so mad, It was a golden opportunity and he missed it. So I was slightly annoyed but then i realized I couldn't do anything about it so i just let it go. So we went back to the classroom for language study. I was trying to memorize our purpose and the baptism questions, but there was all kind of laughing in the halls. I went out and all the other elders had picked teams and were shooting each other and wearing gloves and goggles and riding on brooms like in Harry Potter, I was already annoyed with what happened before that I marched over to them and said " There is a time to have fun, that was two weeks ago. Now is your time to start acting like a missionary. This is the Lord's time and your'e wasting it." I said a lot more I was so mad! They all just looked at me and I was like What have i done? I walked away and they stared laughing at me. I got into the room and burst into tears. This just wasn't my day. Elder Fowler told me to write everything down i was feeling and give to him and he would try and help me. He also told me if i wanted a blessing he would give me one, and he knows exactly what I need at the moment. He will be an excellent missionary! But after I felt horrible because it wasn't my place to say anything so I felt bad, But i asked for forgiveness and now that;s in the past. There is nothing i can do about it now. I know I shouldn't have even let it bother me but that is a problem I have is letting the little things bother me, AND its something i have been working on this whole time and will have to work on for the rest of my life. I am grateful to be humbled by this experience. I'm sure, well i know i have so much more to learn and try and be better at.
SO I had that horrible experience and the next day I told myself i was going to have a wonderful day. I was being positive. We went to class and I didn't get anything that was being said or taught. I felt so lost and behind, i didn't know what to do. After class we had a break and i was just sitting in my chair trying to figure our what was being taught. I felt so overwhelmed i started to cry. Sister drury came over and asked If I was okay. i cried even harder. I didn't know what to do, I told her i was struggling and felt like i wasn't doing anything right. She explained that that's how she was her first 4 weeks in the mtc, and she told me her story. I could relate so much I am so grateful she is my teacher. She offered to come in during additional study time and she would help me with whatever i needed. So starting Monday I have an extra class with her that if just one on one and she will help me. After that good cry/talk i had to go teach my lesson. I felt horrible about it. i didn't want to go I said a prayer and asked to be comforted. We went into the lesson. Sister Aldred took over and shared her story. I didn't understand what was being said, Then r.j, asked me if i could explain the Book of Mormon. I don't remember what i said but i knew i bore my testimony of the book of Mormon I knew i was teaching with the spirit, I started to cry. They were tears of joy! It was the first time i think i have been blessed with the gift of tongues. I just needed to be humbled to have Heavenly Father help me, I also think i thought i was just going to be given it. but you have to work for it. I know Heavenly Father loves me and each of you! He is always there to help us in times of need. He wants us to be happy and he wants us to find joy in this life. i am finding so much joy in serving the Lord. I cant wait to go out and serve the people in Frankfurt Germany. I already love them so much and want them to have the gospel.
I have gotten so many packages from everyone! you are all so wonderful! Everyone is jealous! But don't worry I share with everyone! I think the mail might be delayed here going and coming, Kristen I have sent you 3 letters so I think you should be getting them, Maybe that lady has them that your mail was going to before. I dont know. Thank you for sending me all stuff. It is always perfect timing and much needed!
Oh and in that picture from left to right is: Elder Robinett, Elder Kress, Elder Silver Elder Lyon, Elder Butler, Elder Thurgood, and Elder Fowler. The sisters are me, Sister Aldred, Sister Ferris, and Sister Pitts. WE have the best distict ever!! I love them so much!! Sorry there's not much pictures I don't have a lot of time. I'll send more next week.
I love you all so much!! Thank you for your thoughts and prayers and letters! I feel the love everyday from you!
Ich weiss dass das buch mormon vahr ist. Ich weiss dass Evangelium vahr ist. Ich weiss dass durch gebeten und Schriften studiern wir konnen findet frude und wir konnen eine antwrot erkerren haben. Ich weiss dass familie sind immer. Ich weiss Gott und Jesu Chirisi liebt uns! I wiess dass durch das evengelium, wir konned Glucklich! Ich Liebe Das Evangelium! Ich Liebe meine famille!
I hope you have a wonderful week! I can't wait to hear from you again! I love you so much!! remember this church is true! Heavenly father loves us and wants us to be happy! Don't forget to pray and read your scriptures! You will see blessing from it! I love you all!
Liebe Sister Megli
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