First Week Baby!!

Hallo Familie!! 

I miss you guys all so much! Holy cow this has been a very challenging week. Its still weird to think i am a missionary. It feels like its been forever since I have seen you! But really its only been a week. ( I apologize in advance if the sentences don't make sense. I am used to writing in German and they switch all the places.) But that wed after you dropped me off and that sweet sister came and hugged me I didn't feel scared. I was so excited but terrified. She took me into the first room where they gave me my name tag. That was it, I finally felt like a missionary. After we went and made sure we were actually in the right place, We went and got my books.. 15 lbs of German books! I don't know how on earth i am going to fit all my suitcase. I guess ill be sending something home, i just don't know what. But then it was off to class, they don't mess around here, there's no time too. They only speak German, not just the first day, so half the time i have no idea what anyone is saying. I am so overwhelmed, its so frustrating not being able to communicate what your trying to say. But anyways my mind is so scattered, My companion is Sister Aldred, She is nice she is from St George Utah. I still need to figure out how to get along with her, its harder some days, but we are both so different. The other two sisters in our room are sister Ferris and Sister Pitts. They are both so sweet, I would love to be companions with Sister Ferris one day we get along so well! We have the biggest district in our zone, There are 12 of us right now. We have Elder Silver he is the district leader, and his companion Elder Kress, Elder Lyon and Elder Fowler, Elder Butler and Elder Robinett. And then another Elder who has an overlap his name is Elder Thurgood. We have an amazing district! i love it! And also our zone is made up of about like 50 elders and sisters going to either Berlin or Frankfurt. 

The first day we got there we had to go to this meeting where we met the mtc president. OH man when all the missionaries sang army of Heleman, the spirit was so strong! That's something that is so indescribable the feeling of being surrounded by missionaries all the time! Its always so amazing! 

Thursday was so crazy!! We had to teach our first lesson auf Deutsch. It was horrible, We pretty much just used every German word we knew and hoped he didn't ask us anything but of course that's not how it works, He would ask us these questions and we could kind of get the basics of what he was saying but not really all i could say was Ich weiss Die Kirche varh ist. ( I know the church is true) finally we managed just to say well we have to go and ended with prayer. As soon as we stepped out of the room I lost it, I broke down in tears and doubted everything I knew and questioned why i chose to come on a mission. To think I had a choice, and I chose this? What was i thinking! I was so embarrassed that I was already crying and it was the only second day. I went back to class and all the Elders were really nice about it, They all offered me words of encouragement, One of the teachers told me this was normal and to think i just did that, when as of the day before i couldn't have. I know my Deutsch is horrible! but if I rely on the Savior He will make all things possible. It was really nice after that we had to go to lunch and I was so upset and Elder Kress asked me how to say my name and got down and prayed, He prayed for me to comforted, It was the kindest thing ever, I love the Elders!! We are all such good friends already. I know shocker I like being around the Elders more then the girls. haha but alles gut! And also we are never on time. It will be a miracle when we are, our teachers finally just come late because we are never there! We had another 3 hour block of class, dinner nothing that great. But everyday one of the sisters compliments me of how beautiful i look! It always makes my day! I guess spending all that money really is paying off! :) I have written home a few letters I hope you are getting them, I haven't heard anything from you guys! Which I would love to hear from everyone! Dear Elder is amazing, Because when your having such a bad day and you get a letter from someone it just helps reassure that your in the right place and everything is good. 

One of the most amazing things happened. I have never felt the spirit so strong. We were sitting in class and Brother Little told us to get out our scriptures, We starting reading 1 nephi 1, a scripture that we have all read hundreds of time, Nothing had ever stuck out to me, He had us write down a question that we wanted God to answer. I asked for something that can help me find comfort and not feel so homesick. We started to read, We got about 3 verses in and Elder Kress says stop and asked if we could pray. So we prayed, and this is all in German keep that in mind, the spirit that that prayer brought in was amazing, We kept reading and Elder Lyon had bore his testimony about a certain verse. Then it was my turn i read 1 nephi 1;20 " The tender mercies of the Lord are over all those whom he hath chosen because of their Faith" It hit me that I am here because I have been called of God. I shared my testimony about my mission and I started to cry, I felt the spirit so strong! IT was one of the best feelings in the world! Elder Kress bless his heart is such a sweetheart, he came up to me after and gave me a quote " With great comfort there is little growth.. with little comfort there is great growth" it was perfect for what i needed to hear. He is a great Elder and will be an amazing Missionary! He knows how to put his needs before his. 

Sorry Lisa and Susie, I only saw Ben from a distance like twice, never close enough to talk to him. haha he looks very happy! I know he will be a great missionary! He has the spirit with him and you can see it! 

I am starting to get so homesick! But all the Elders can always tell and try and take my mind off things. of course I am the big tease around here, They said its because I always react to everything, You would think I would learn, I guess not. Sunday was really good, It was nice break from everything we went to mission conference and we had some really great speakers, We had more study time but that doesn't go too well with 12 teenagers in a room at once. I was thinking on Sunday before sacrament meeting that I wish my dad was here to give me a blessing. I really wanted one. So after sacrament meeting which was so good! All of us bore testimony of serving missions. WE got to go to the temple and walk around i wish i could upload pictures but i need a cord, so someone should send me one haha but we got back and the training sisters interviewed me asking me how i was doing, She told me I could ask for a priesthood blessing from the Elders, I really need to I haven't had much time too but hopefully this week sometime. Also fast Sunday seemed like FOREVER!!  I have fasted before but not like this, IT was like 24 hours, which i know it should be anyways, but when your going and going you get hungry so that was hard haha After dinner we went to a devotional it was really good it was about how Mission Calls are from God. After we went and Watched the Joseph Smith movie, Watching it from the perspective of a missionary was amazing! I know Joseph Smith is a prophet of God and that he restored this gospel in the fullness. 

its so crazy here! I love it but am so overwhelmed every day! I feel like i want everything to be perfect and its not and I cant control it. I have been very humbled with this whole experience, Its weird, i keep thinking this to be like girls camp and im coming home next week,, but I'm not. 18 months seems like so far away! I got my release date already its like January 26th but that doesn't matter. One thing that i know I need to work on that will help me with teaching my lessons and feeling the spirit is to get along with my companion. Its been a real struggle. She doesn't seem to think anything is wrong so when i call her out she doesn't like to listen. She tries to tell me how to use my personal time and I don't like to be told what to do, so there is this contention between us which is causing us not to be able to teach by the spirit in our lessons with Stefan. That has been one of my struggles is to be loving and accepting of everyone! I know the Lord is blessing me and my family! I love this Gospel so much! I am so grateful to be able to serve a mission! I cant wait to bring the Joy and Happiness this gospel brings me to the people in Frankfurt Germany! I love You guys so much! Please write me more! I need so much help and I am so comforted by Letters and Dear Elders! I can't wait to hear from everyone! Ich liebe dich!! 

I'm sorry this letter is so scattered! I have so much on my mind! But I love you all so much!! 

Love Sister Megli